goings on...

       i've remembered how to listen to music. i haven't for a long time since i've been listening to audiobooks on my commutes, otherwise the only time i really get to 'rock out'. but i've got some mumford and sons going on iTunes as i type, and it's acting as a sort of salve, drawing out some of the poison.

       i've been stutter blogging a lot over the last couple weeks, but everything ends up deleted. still feeling pretty lost, but holding on, i suppose. still here.

       received a package in the mail yesterday from new york, which rocketed my spirits. christmas presents from my friend dan, here sometimes commenting as "mr. mysterious" or some similar monicker, which included a collection of short stories by amy hempel, some great little orange flavored shortbreads from harlem, and a rainbow-colored feather boa (my personal favorite). all more appreciated than i've been able to express.

       remember that match.com subscription i mentioned? still haven't done anything with it. ha. there's one that i keep wanting to message, but i don't. it's kind of a weird situation. i want to send him a message, but i also know i'm not in the right place. so i do nothing.

       saw tron: legacy last night. it's been getting mixed reviews, but i really enjoyed it. the score was inspired -- i always like twists of old and new like that. made me want to dabble in such things again. the story was somewhat similar to the first, so it had a tinge of remake, but i didn't mind that, and the deeper levels of meaning were underdeveloped but present and appreciated. kind of had a questioning of hope and dreams thing going on. it's probably a question being asked a lot right now, as the "american dream" has deflated somewhat.

       christmas in three days. kinda crazy how 2010 flew. two years from yesterday is the end of the world. haha. k, time for work. laters.