tortellini with marinara and cold milk...

     interesting day. today was my first day back at the como hy-vee and i was able to enjoy it as a courtesy clerk, which means i sacked groceries and pushed carts for seven hours. it wasn't that bad, but i really don't like being the hy-vee...er...person who does everything they're told. upon my return home i decided a nice cleansing jog would be good. i'm definitely out of shape, but it wasn't horrible, at least by my standards. i needed it. then i made supper. it was good.

     so that was my monday.

     i'm too pessimistic, i think. well, i was also told this. coldplay was good, but a little too depressing, so i've put lifehouse back up for now. tried to get a shawn mcdonald song, but the last minute or so was cut off. sad. but i love lifehouse. as for the first sentence of this paragraph, however, i think my goal for tomorrow shall be to be optimistic. i'm optimistic that i will survive even though i didn't do any of the required readings. yeah. i should get on that. seriously, though, i need to be more optimistic. things will work out. i'm going to finish my book. there is a girl out there crazy enough to date me. oh my, i might get in trouble with that last one. bad things pass away. "[and] like a shaft, clear and cold, the thought pierced him that in the end the shadow was only a small and passing thing: there was light and high beauty forever beyond its reach." i wasn't being very optimistic when i took down my site. i had a pretty dang good weekend, but i haven't really been able to see that until tonight when i had a good chat with a friend. the same friend, actually, that i've mentioned over the last few weeks. it's so easy for me to see the bad things that happen. i'm not sure why. but that has been weighing very heavy on my heart and it cast a darker light on things. i know he doesn't mean for things to come off a certain way. but sometimes they do just because i don't understand him completely or i'm looking at it from the wrong angle. i've been doing that quite a bit lately, and it's time to stop. i thought that he was blowing me off about some things, but tonight i found out he's been worried about me. it's really nice to know that someone cares about you (i'm not saying "someone" as in, "there's finally a person who..." but rather it's nice to find that this person in particular cares). amazing what communication can do. and thanks, katy. you're awesome. it's not quite there yet, but we'll get there, and i think it may end up being a better place than before. end weird paragraph.

     so that was the rest of my monday. i'm tired. i didn't get a thing done. time for bed.