i'd say it's about time for an update.  it's pretty sad, though, when i can't stay away for two days!  i've been keeping busy, but then again it doesn't seem like i've done anything.  i'm enjoying my day off by cleaning...yeah.  i don't mind it, though.  it makes me feel useful.  i sound like an old house-wife.  how sad is that!? 

     hidalgo comes out tomorrow.  really wanting to see that.  until then i'll busy myself with music and writing, though i haven't been feeling it lately.  it seems i've become especially good at alienating a few friends recently, and i don't like the way it's going.  wow.  i need to do something.  chad and i are going to the gym again this afternoon.  we've been going about twice a week now, so it's not the best, but still better than nothing.  i love running on treadmills for some reason.  i know it's cheating, but you get to watch tv! 

     i hate the way i plummet right after a spiritual high.  just like the first hill of a roller coaster...it takes forever to get up, you have that thrilling moment where you're at the top and your heart jumps, then your stomach turns and you fall faster than ever.  i'm only looking forward to the bottom because that means you get to go back up.  i suppose i should be thankful because without the valleys i wouldn't know the peaks.  ah, well...i need to go, so i'll talk to all of you later! 

     p.s.  i'm really missing jyo.  xanga just isn't the same without him, though others have done fairly well with filling the void...but not entirely.  come back to us!